Tap Dancing....

...I just tapped for about an hour, doing choreography, warm-ups, and wearing my HRM...

It burned about 550! Why wasn't I thinner in HS??  Oh, right. Doritos and a lifetime of emotional eating.

Sweaty dancer face:

(Pardon cleavage. That's a VS bra-top shirt, and TOM at work...I swear I'm only a B cup!)

Hope I get this job at the dance studio Tuesday. I'll be tapping and doing jazz ALL weekend to brush up...it's been over a year since I taught dance! I feel so lost! 

Hey you guys!!!

Remember that time I used to write funny things?

Nope, you certainly don't, because that was LONG before I was blogging about weight loss.

I've been less than entertaining lately. In fact, I've been downright...well....down.

But, after my Friday evening was spent  reviewing QUITE humorous blogs, I decided I need to use this free time (read: unemployment-ish-status) to focus on making my blog and weight loss journey slightly more humorous.

I'm not sure HOW I am going to do that yet, but it's coming.

Either way, back down to 183.4 this week....need to bounce down to 170's ASAP. 90 Days till college BFF's wedding....

184.6

I'm done gaining. My knee hurts. My back was out. My body can't handle more weight.

So, I think I'm going to play a new mental game with myself:
10% of 184.6 is 18.4....
5% of that is 9.2....

So my next goal is 175.4

98 days to Meredith's wedding. I've got to get it together.

OP2 Overcome day 1 is in the bag...Here goes nothing...

I start working out again tomorrow after work...

:::waves white flag:::

I've cried about 1/3 of the day today.

This summer is really sucking, and if I did NOT have the world's awesome-est BF, my life would be in shambles.

I wish I could live on my own....

I feel terrible.

I tried for SO long to keep my blog posts positive, but since work ended, I feel absolutely terrible.

I gained 4.2 lbs over the past 2 WI's, and am pretty sure I'll be gaining this week, too.

I've had bad luck with my health, so I haven't worked out (shin splints, ear infection/dizziness, and now my back is out).

I have no structure in my schedule.

I had a pre-interview screening on Tuesday for a DREAM JOB. I thought it was an interview when I went. I haven't heard back.....and I thought it went really well, so I'm crushed again.

I don't have the money to really DO anything during the day....so I'm stuck in the house. And I can't work out. And I feel terrible about myself. So I've been eating.

I want this job so bad, but I feel like the window of opportunity has passed. I cried this morning. Between my back pain and the job, and dreaming all last night of getting "terminated" again and again is way too much for me to handle.

The days feel SO long when you're isolated with next to nothing to do.

I just want to stop feeling fat and terrible. I want to fix my back, and my ears, and my thyroid so I can RUN.

I also want to curl up into a ball in the fetal position and lay there for 17,000 hours.