I'm down .2 today. Being that I was SURE I was going to have a gain, I'm OVERJOYED...believe me - this was a HUGE SV!
Dear Body:
THANK YOU.
Lesson learned: I will not go into the red this week. I am RE-restarting Cycle 3 of OP to Overcome: NO RED POINTS. I can do 21 days without "Red Points" and my body will thank me. Between my 29 DPT, 49 WPA, and APs from running about 13 miles this coming week, I should have MORE than enough food, and still be able to create a calorie deficit. (I only eat about HALF of my APs when I am done with my WPA. I always use my AP's before my WPA).
I ate a LOT of crap this week, with all of the junk that has been in my house, leftover from my Superbowl Party. And I got to thinking....when I eat CRAP, I feel like CRAP. Doritos? Crap. Potato chips? Crap. Ranch Dip? Crap. Pepperoni? Crap.
Stop eating crap = stop FEELING like crap. This is the first week I have really done this since P+ started, and I swear I am NOT going to do it again.
In other, more exciting news...
P is taking me out for dinner for V-day on Monday. He asked before we were "official" if he could see me that day (which I thought was ADORABLE, as I tend to think things are, with him). Last Monday, he texted me while I was at work, to find out if I prefer Italian or Seafood. My response, in typical girl fashion was:
Italian....but am also very partial to seafood so either is fantastic. ;)
So P made reservations at BOTH Italian and Seafood restaurants. He told me last night that we'll pick one to cancel, but he wants to take me to both places bc he really likes them both, "so whichever one we DON'T go to, we'll save for another day."
My plan for V-day is to:
1) Eat LOTS of Power Foods for Breakfast and Lunch
2) Have a veggie snack before dinner (7:30 reservation, at either place)
3) Halve the portion size on whatever I eat at the restaurant.
4) Stick to ONE glass of wine. (which is good, bc I need to drive home @ the end of the night anyway)
5) Limit ANY bread to one piece
P knows that I like to eat, like to cook. He also knows that I have been heavier and am trying to "lose my thyroid weight." He doesn't know yet that I am on Weight Watchers, but it really hasn't come up. I think when I get more comfortable in this relationship, I will let him know....but only if I think it has staying power.
(((P+, and feeling completely appreciated by new DBF)))
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
UGH....47 P+ in the Red....
This is the VERY FIRST time I've been so far in the red since P+ began.
Truth is, physically, I feel terrible. My PMS this week in conjunction with the Superbowl caused me to go WAY over my P+.
The other problem? A pulled muscle which means I only got in ONE run as of this afternoon. I'm going to try to get in another at 7:30.
ANNNND, probably a little bit of emotional eating. A colleague/friend of mine got royally f*cked by our school, and it really came down in the last week. It's really disappointing, as I work in a religious private school, and she was treated like a piece of horse shit.
It's really brought a lot of things into question for me...because, I now doubt how many people who are running the churches are really inherently GOOD people...This scares me. I'm also afraid, after having my job threatened for a bullsh*t reason (myself, and 4 others), that after my friend is gone, they will look for someone else to abuse and start psychological warfare with. ("They" being my Principals; I am a school teacher, if I haven't mentioned this before).
I stepped on the scale again today, and I was + 1.8 after school. So, yeah, I am expecting a gain tomorrow. I haven't decided yet if I am going to take the NWI pass or not. The point of the matter is
1) Tomorrow begins a new day
2) Tomorrow begins a new WEEK
3) Next week I will NOT have a gain
I'll decide tomorrow morning if I can emotionally handle seeing the numbers going up during a PMS week. If I can, I will take the WI and eat the gain. If I can't, I will take the NWI, and move on.
Either way, I'm strong, and I've been rocking this. I'm worth it, and I love how I feel (other than being INCREDIBLY BLOATED right now...:-/ )
Truth is, physically, I feel terrible. My PMS this week in conjunction with the Superbowl caused me to go WAY over my P+.
The other problem? A pulled muscle which means I only got in ONE run as of this afternoon. I'm going to try to get in another at 7:30.
ANNNND, probably a little bit of emotional eating. A colleague/friend of mine got royally f*cked by our school, and it really came down in the last week. It's really disappointing, as I work in a religious private school, and she was treated like a piece of horse shit.
It's really brought a lot of things into question for me...because, I now doubt how many people who are running the churches are really inherently GOOD people...This scares me. I'm also afraid, after having my job threatened for a bullsh*t reason (myself, and 4 others), that after my friend is gone, they will look for someone else to abuse and start psychological warfare with. ("They" being my Principals; I am a school teacher, if I haven't mentioned this before).
I stepped on the scale again today, and I was + 1.8 after school. So, yeah, I am expecting a gain tomorrow. I haven't decided yet if I am going to take the NWI pass or not. The point of the matter is
1) Tomorrow begins a new day
2) Tomorrow begins a new WEEK
3) Next week I will NOT have a gain
I'll decide tomorrow morning if I can emotionally handle seeing the numbers going up during a PMS week. If I can, I will take the WI and eat the gain. If I can't, I will take the NWI, and move on.
Either way, I'm strong, and I've been rocking this. I'm worth it, and I love how I feel (other than being INCREDIBLY BLOATED right now...:-/ )
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Just stepped off the scale....
....from my mid-week peek. Right now, it shows up .9, and while I HATE to count chickens before they're hatched, I am SURE I can turn that around by Sat AM with my running, and more Healthy Oils (I've been REALLY short on them this week - ate at friends' houses two nights in a row)....
I'm behind on running this week. It's PMS week, and with TOM looming, I always have back pain. Couple that with a sore throat, and I haven't run since THURSDAY. I'll be running again tonight, but just shooting for three runs this week. I will also be seeing my chiropractor tonight. I feel so defeated when I am not running. I WILL fix this tonight, although I think it's going to be on my home treadmill, bc with all of the going out I've been doing lately, I have not really spent adequate quality time with my dog, ROWDY! :-)
Cooking dinner tonight. Haven't cooked since Sunday when I had a Superbowl gathering for my nearest + dearest friends (and of COURSE, new DBF, P). Making Skinnytaste's Pasta Fagioli, which has become a house favorite, and I make it about every other week. I also use some of my DPT with this to have 2 tsp of evoo with Italian Bread for dipping - and BELIEVE me, that Italian bread is SO worth those P+!
So, I am telling you all this out of love (though it may be TMI)....but Healthy oils REALLY work. I have felt SO backed up all week missing out on them. Don't neglect them! (Plus, when you eat them in the manner that I'm eating them, they are SO fun and indulgent).
I'm behind on running this week. It's PMS week, and with TOM looming, I always have back pain. Couple that with a sore throat, and I haven't run since THURSDAY. I'll be running again tonight, but just shooting for three runs this week. I will also be seeing my chiropractor tonight. I feel so defeated when I am not running. I WILL fix this tonight, although I think it's going to be on my home treadmill, bc with all of the going out I've been doing lately, I have not really spent adequate quality time with my dog, ROWDY! :-)
Cooking dinner tonight. Haven't cooked since Sunday when I had a Superbowl gathering for my nearest + dearest friends (and of COURSE, new DBF, P). Making Skinnytaste's Pasta Fagioli, which has become a house favorite, and I make it about every other week. I also use some of my DPT with this to have 2 tsp of evoo with Italian Bread for dipping - and BELIEVE me, that Italian bread is SO worth those P+!
So, I am telling you all this out of love (though it may be TMI)....but Healthy oils REALLY work. I have felt SO backed up all week missing out on them. Don't neglect them! (Plus, when you eat them in the manner that I'm eating them, they are SO fun and indulgent).
Saturday, February 5, 2011
IIiiiiiiiiiiii have a boyyyyyyyyyyyyyfriend! (And another loss!)
So as of last night, P and I are official. I initiated the conversation, but it was really precious. I am SO smitted with him. I stayed over his place (not planned, as he is at work today - but we were snuggly and good) and am so excited to see him come to my house tomorrow for my Superbowl Party! He is just all sorts of adorable, and I am trying VERY hard not to gush, but it's hard not to. Thank you, OKCupid/my initiating conversation!
At WI, I was down another .6, bringing me to 178.8. I'm really excited bc I was kinda holding off on my MacBook - in the past, I have a history yo-yo-ing back up after I hit a milestone goal (180, 10%)...so I am really glad to have continued to lose, and plan to try to go get my MacBook at the mall today, if I have enough time btwn all of the house cleaning and preparing for Superbowl tomorrow. (btw, I am a DIE HARD Giants fan, but a football fan in general, it's a big TO-DO for me)
I am expecting my losses to slow down from this point forward - but I feel really good and positive about hitting goal in 2011. I have 28.8 lbs to go, and 10 months to do it in...so that's roughly 2.88 a month...so from here on in, I plan to shoot for a 3 lb loss/month. This is very realistic and HEALTHY - which is the most important thing.
I indulged this AM with my favorite weekend breakfast, tweaked:
Bagel w
4 egg whites, cooked in
1 tsp canola,
and 1 laughing cow cheese on the side
NOTHING beats a Long Island bagel. But, for 8 pts, I haven't had one in about 8 weeks!
Anyhow, I am off to work on my cleaning and errands. I'll be blogging about Superbowl Menu tomorrow or later this evening. I plan to have an OP Superbowl! woohoo!
At WI, I was down another .6, bringing me to 178.8. I'm really excited bc I was kinda holding off on my MacBook - in the past, I have a history yo-yo-ing back up after I hit a milestone goal (180, 10%)...so I am really glad to have continued to lose, and plan to try to go get my MacBook at the mall today, if I have enough time btwn all of the house cleaning and preparing for Superbowl tomorrow. (btw, I am a DIE HARD Giants fan, but a football fan in general, it's a big TO-DO for me)
I am expecting my losses to slow down from this point forward - but I feel really good and positive about hitting goal in 2011. I have 28.8 lbs to go, and 10 months to do it in...so that's roughly 2.88 a month...so from here on in, I plan to shoot for a 3 lb loss/month. This is very realistic and HEALTHY - which is the most important thing.
I indulged this AM with my favorite weekend breakfast, tweaked:
Bagel w
4 egg whites, cooked in
1 tsp canola,
and 1 laughing cow cheese on the side
NOTHING beats a Long Island bagel. But, for 8 pts, I haven't had one in about 8 weeks!
Anyhow, I am off to work on my cleaning and errands. I'll be blogging about Superbowl Menu tomorrow or later this evening. I plan to have an OP Superbowl! woohoo!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Mid-week peek and February goals...
I did my typical Wednesday peek was was up .4...but honestly, that could easily be a loss by Saturday. We didn't have any fruit in the house until today - and I ate what P cooked me last night (delicious!) but could have had ANY amount of sodium in it. Either way, I have 3 more runs this week, 15 WPA left before dinner tonight, and the opportunity to take good care of my body for the rest of the week. If I stay diligent, I am not worried. I know I have said it about a THOUSAND times, but I really love the P+ plan and how satisfied I have been on it. There is literally NOTHING that I really cut out. For example, tonight I am having Spinach & Cheese Tortelini with Italian bread and EVOO. Granted, I cut down my portion sizes, but honestly, I'd rather have some than none.
SO, my February Goals, after considering them for a few days, are this:
1) approximately 50 miles logged running
2) 4 "cross training" workouts (one none-running workout per week)
3) Lose 3 lbs (and forgive myself when I don't)
4) Give up Diet Soda!
5) Take ONE class...of some kind, fitness or otherwise - I just want to learn new things!
I'm on day 2 of giving up diet soda...I usually only have one a day, but I find that I am REALLY dragging in the afternoons! I just hate the idea of drinking my sodium - I had also done away with it in HS, so I know I am capable of it...and I KNOW it's better to get rid of the chemicals, but I still expect it to be on the difficult side. BUT, I am using the logic that if I can do it for 28 days, I can do it forever.
NSV yesterday: My jeans have been falling down, so I went to American Eagle to try on a size 12 - and they fit! My butt looks great, lol
SO, my February Goals, after considering them for a few days, are this:
1) approximately 50 miles logged running
2) 4 "cross training" workouts (one none-running workout per week)
3) Lose 3 lbs (and forgive myself when I don't)
4) Give up Diet Soda!
5) Take ONE class...of some kind, fitness or otherwise - I just want to learn new things!
I'm on day 2 of giving up diet soda...I usually only have one a day, but I find that I am REALLY dragging in the afternoons! I just hate the idea of drinking my sodium - I had also done away with it in HS, so I know I am capable of it...and I KNOW it's better to get rid of the chemicals, but I still expect it to be on the difficult side. BUT, I am using the logic that if I can do it for 28 days, I can do it forever.
NSV yesterday: My jeans have been falling down, so I went to American Eagle to try on a size 12 - and they fit! My butt looks great, lol
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