...cause it crashed again on Wednesday. When I WI Thursday, I was up 2.4 lbs.
I am so tired and so disgusted w myself. I was MOSTLY OP and earned lots of AP. I was in the red 9 pts, but that does not constitute a 2.4 lb gain.
Ever since Wed, I no longer have any energy (again, like I was 3 weeks ago) and can barely get out of bed after work. So tired. So over it.
I hate my body. I hate what it looks like and feels like, and I hate that my clothes don't fit.
I hate that it's working AGAINST my best efforts. I hate that once upon a time I was 162 and allowed myself to go ALL the way up to 200 again.
I just wasted a Saturday off because I didn't even have the energy to sit by the pool in the sun. This is awful.
I hope I lose this week, otherwise I will have to re-evaluate my WW membership. I haven't been able to afford it since I rejoined, but I figured it was worth the expense. Now, I'm not so sure it's worth the expense until I get my medical issues worked out.
Feel like crying.
{{hugs}} if the price is too much, id say switch to online, a lot cheaper, but you can still stay OP.
ReplyDeleteIt sucks when you have no energy. there are some days when it will be beautiful out & I will have no energy and just lay on my couch with the shades drawn. Try to get out a little or do something nice for yourself. maybe it will help.
feel better!
I second Stephanie! Online is way cheaper and you still get access to everything.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're feeling this way. I have those days. Have you made an appointment to maybe talk to your physician. If its something involving your thyroid maybe its something that can be controlled through medication, if you're not already on some sort of regimen. I hope things work out for you. It's hard when things seem so tough. Even if you don't have the energy to run try to get a 10 minute walk. You'll get outside and feel 10x better afterward!
Thanks Ladies....
ReplyDeleteStory is, I was just diagnosed before I moved back to NY from NC. I have had my medication dosage increased twice in the last few weeks, and after the last increase (Saturday) I can't go get my blood drawn again for 6 more weeks.
I've tried online before, so I'm considering it as an option. I tend to gain doing online bc it doesn't keep me accountable enough - but it might have to come down to that - I can't even find a meeting that I like this time around! (My leader that I lost 68 lbs with in 2004-2007 seems to be among the missing. Doing some research on him)...