Had a HORRIBLE WW weekend. Posted on the BOARDS with it, but will copy & paste to here (in the interest of laziness!)
**This weekend = disastrous for me!
Friday: WI, gained 1 lb, brother's bday, BIG BBQ @ my house. Planned to go INTO my WPA, and managed to do that WELL. :-/ However, did eat a turkey burger, corn, and some good stuff during the day. Too many sweets.
Saturday: Family reunion: brought own turkey burger & bun, but the salad my gma makes involves the dressing being made ON it with sugar. So I had no veggies. Sad looking plate with ONLY a burger on it. ExBF called me and left a vmail which I didn't listen to and deleted. Slept horrible bc of anxiety.
Sunday: Gma's birthday celebration. I asked my mom what would be served ahead of time in order to prepare: Eggplant Parm, chicken marsala, salads, veggie plates (she said). Go to party with a plant to eat eggplant parm, veggies galore, and a BIG salad.
Well, there was NO veggie plate to be found, the salad was made with GOBS of caesar dressing, crutons, and cheese, and I ended up binging out on Pumpernickel bread, cheese, and spinach dip BEFORE I had the eggplant parm. TOTALLY emotional eating due to ExBF calling Sat, leaving a vmail, and my deleting it. (I broke up with him almost 2 weeks ago...He was kinda blindsided by it - WHY, I don't know, but I am having a hard time getting him OUT of my life)
I get home...Close my wrist in a door and am sitting here icing it. Then, I go to plan my day for tomorrow/pack my lunch, and my food scale is BROKEN. Now, I have no IDEA what any of the lean proteins in my house are, and I'm crazy about being exact. I have $10 in my bank account for the next two weeks and cannot afford to buy a new one...and I live in an UN-WW friendly house. There's never whole grains or fresh fruit unless I go get it, and being tied up in family party prep all weekend, it didn't happen.
I've HAD IT. It's Sunday, I'm out of WPA, and I have to get MAD APs in by my WI Thurs morn to even have a HOPE of maintaining. I feel disgusting, none of my clothes fit, and I would be very content to sit here and bawl for the rest of the night. I just want to lose weight and feel good about myself.**
So that was it. LOTS of emotional eating. I WI on Thursday this week (it's hard to get a regular day when you work retail)...I had good intentions to NOT go into/OVER my AP & WPA for this week, but I have. 26 points in the red. I plan to get 4-5 APs today and tomorrow, so that should only land me at min APs, 18 in the red...at max, 16 in the red. But we'll see...Maybe I can push myself to get more? Maybe I assigned **too** many points to some things? Either way, I need a SERIOUS recommitment after WI this week, for SURE. I want to get my 5 lbs off for July (my monthly goal is 5 lbs. I missed it last month).
I'm babbling here, so I will move on. I just needed a "cleansing" entry, I guess!
Oh dear! We all have bad weeks, please don't let it get you so down!!
ReplyDeleteI haven't talked to anyone who actually had a GOOD 4th of July weekend! Take a step back and breathe. We are human. We cannot possibly stay on track every single day for the rest of our lives. We deserve to have a good time and eat during parties.
Today is a new day. Get some APs and drink lots of water! You can do this!