UGH....47 P+ in the Red....

This is the VERY FIRST time I've been so far in the red since P+ began.

Truth is, physically, I feel terrible. My PMS this week in conjunction with the Superbowl caused me to go WAY over my P+.

The other problem? A pulled muscle which means I only got in ONE run as of this afternoon. I'm going to try to get in another at 7:30.

ANNNND, probably a little bit of emotional eating. A colleague/friend of mine got royally f*cked by our school, and it really came down in the last week. It's really disappointing, as I work in a religious private school, and she was treated like a piece of horse shit.

It's really brought a lot of things into question for me...because, I now doubt how many people who are running the churches are really inherently GOOD people...This scares me. I'm also afraid, after having my job threatened for a bullsh*t reason (myself, and 4 others), that after my friend is gone, they will look for someone else to abuse and start psychological warfare with. ("They" being my Principals; I am a school teacher, if I haven't mentioned this before).

I stepped on the scale again today, and I was + 1.8 after school. So, yeah, I am expecting a gain tomorrow. I haven't decided yet if I am going to take the NWI pass or not. The point of the matter is
1) Tomorrow begins a new day
2) Tomorrow begins a new WEEK
3) Next week I will NOT have a gain

I'll decide tomorrow morning if I can emotionally handle seeing the numbers going up during a PMS week. If I can, I will take the WI and eat the gain. If I can't, I will take the NWI, and move on.

Either way, I'm strong, and I've been rocking this. I'm worth it, and I love how I feel (other than being INCREDIBLY BLOATED right now...:-/ )